Feelings

There are so many feelings experienced with Severe ME;  the pain, the loss, the hurt, the rejection, the distress of abandonment and neglect, the outrage of denial and abuse. The list is infinite . 

To deal with these feelings we have to go deeper, we have  to search for greater meaning to survive, we have to seek connection, we find meaning in the minute detail of being , overlooked by most whose lives are busy and full.

Instead we are surprisingly blessed with a mysterious gift, one that opens up as time slows down and infinite presence reveals itself within us.

 We find deeper meaning in the living of life, battered by suffering, yet blessed by  Divine Love, expressed through friendship, kindness, generosity, communion, community, prayer, spirit, awareness and also through direct connection with God himself , as we enter more deeply into oneness and  presence.

There is a peace , there is a love of silence and stillness, there is a fulfilment ,there is a lack of fear, there is an acute awareness of what is false here , in this place, despite the irritation , the poverty of opportunity,  the political and  medical isolation  that comes with living with  severe ME.

Feelings come and go , but deep in our journey into suffering, they become  just ripples on the surface. For what lies deeper is how we chose to respond to the situation we constantly have to deal with and increasingly that choice is more real  , more based on love, more determined to fight for real change, and more and more connected within the Heart of Love.